Wednesday, June 22, 2011

Photos Are A Testament - Miracle

This beautiful moth in the garden makes me think of just how fragile & delicate my beautiful daughter is. I thank God over & over I still have her & I can hug her & tell her I love her. Thank God I am not at her funeral today. I find myself going from room to room checking each of my children. I really do not want them out of my sight. I question myself to why I did not just take the keys. The horrible feeling thinking I left her drive my jeep & I gave her the keys. The tears fill my eyes while knowing she could have died & it would be my fault. As I imagine her fear while the accident took place & after I wish I could take those images from her mind & the pain. Or if I could have took her place to spare her this trauma. I am her mother & I want to make things all better for her. I love her.

I started this post yesterday after we returned from the trip to the garage that has the jeep. I wanted to settle up with the company who removed the jeep from the accident scene. He was not in. Now I have to go back again on Friday. We took Lucas with us to see the jeep. I wanted him to see it so that he would be more cautious while driving. Lucas has his drivers permit now & wants his drivers licenses. Mom is not ready for this either. So many of his friends have their licenses or they are getting their permits. I do not think they truly understand the reality of having an accident. They are all young & just want some freedom. Driving is freedom & they do not seem to take Lakens accident so serious. I guess when young you have no fear until you live it. I made the comment to my husband that maybe I should just have the jeep put in the field here at the homestead as a reminder in hopes that they would all take driving seriously. My husband said he did not think it would work & sometimes one has to learn the hard way. I took some photos of the jeep before leaving. To me these photos are a testament as to what God has spared us & the continued blessing of having Laken with us. As I said I believe God put his angles around Laken & pulled her from the front passenger window area.

Last night I read a poem in a post of a blog I read. Country Blossom. So wonderful she left God use her to provide these words of wisdom & comfort. Thank you!

At times like these man is helpless... it is only God who can speak the words that calm the sea, still the wind and ease the pain... so lean on Him and you will never walk alone.....
Helen Steiner Rice

These words were meant for me at this time. I can question myself but will never know the anwswers. What dose it really matter? What matters is my daughter is alive & safe. I thank God for this amazing blessing. I thank all of you for your warm & caring comments. Most of all I thank you all for lifting prayers to our God for Laken & our family. Her cuts are healing. She is very stiff & sore. She continues to have some pain in her head, legs & tail bone. At times she is kind of lost in herself. This was first noticed the day after her accident while back at the hospital for her ultrasound. I am praying for this also to reside.

Blessings Til Next Time!


  1. Sounds like you are trying to move ahead. It is hard but you will all be fine.
    The most important thing is that she is healing.
    Tomorrow is a brand new day. Praise GOD!

  2. Lara,

    I'm glad your daughter is safe...When I saw the photo of the front of the, that's awful..and God protected your precious girl :) :) I'll pray she mends quickly - inside and out. Yes, driving is a responsability and not a just a right ;) :) I'm praying for you, too, precious momma ;) :)

    Love and hugs from Oregon, Heather :)

  3. Lara, I just read about your daughter's accident and cried while thinking of my granddaughter, who is also a new driver. I worry about her all the time and how kids think they are invincible until something aweful happens, like your Laken's accident. I will certainly be praying for her for a quick recovery full. Our kids and grands really Are as fragile as that Luna Moth. God be with them and you too, for rest.
    God's peace.

  4. Lara this is not your fault !As moms we think and want to protect our kids from life but the truth is we can't stop these things from happening. This was already planned out by God just as saving your daughter's life . We may never know or understand why the accident happened but there was a reason behind it .

    The pics are so scary to see it just makes your stomach drop .Thank you Lord for protecting this child ! It has to be devastating for you as her mom .Please know that I will be keeping your family in my thoughts and prayers. Hugs,Jen

    p.s. My son had an accident at the age of 17 ,so I understand the guilty feeling.

  5. I am so relieved to hear she is o.k. What a blessing. How scary when they start to drive! I am not looking forward to this day. Sending you many hugs and you are in my thoughts and prayers.


  6. Lara I have wanted to comment on this ordeal with your daughter all day but it won't let me. If this works, I just want to say thank you Lord for keeping your watchful hand on her. She is a very lucky girl but I'm sure she knows that already. I will be praying for a heart healing as well as a physical healing from God. We serve a great big God and he is well able to take care of everything!

    Hugs and Blessings,

  7. Hi Lara... I have to agree with you all Gods Angels were holding Laken in there arms when she had her accident. Laken is blessed and I am sure that she will heal emotionally in time as well as physically.
    I will continue to keep laken you and your family in my thoughts and prayers.

    Take care of yourself and know that none of this was in anyway your fault.