Monday, July 25, 2011
Tomato & Cucumber Bed Dug Up
I made two beds to plant tomato & cucumbers in weeks ago. I planted the cucumber seeds & waited for them to grow large enough to plant them in the new beds. I purchased some tomato plants at Lowes & a neighbor gave me some more tomato plants he grew from seed in a cold flat. Tomatoes were on the vines & ripening. So tickled I was. Until this past Sunday when the dog from hell dug in them. My husband assured me he would watch his dog & he would not dig in the new beds. I heard digging noise from the dining room windows. I looked out & that dog was digging in the flower bed under the windows. I ran outside to get him out. Before I got there he had already dug a hole & layed on the balloon flowers & a day lily. The day lily is broken over. My husband laughed about it & said he is hot. I was very hurt. I spend hours each day caring for the gardens. Later I discovered the dog had dug in the new beds. After weeks of tending these plants it sickened me. My husband blamed it on the cats saying I did not see the dog do it. This turned into a blow up from my husband ending with him accusing me of hurting his dog, threatening to have me arrested & telling me he hoped the dog killed everything I have planted then telling me he dose not love me & he wants a divorce. Needless to say the dog has the plants now. I threw them where he is tied today. What was the point of waiting for him to kill them all? There will be no pickles to can or fresh tomatoes to slice. I can not understand why God would allow someone to think more of a pet than his kids & wife. This dog never dose any wrong in my husbands eyes. We can not even have cookouts & eat in the gazebo when my husband is home because he says we are teasing his dog & hurting its feelings. The gazebo has become a glorified dog house to his dog. When our teens have stayed out all night my husband has layed his head on his pillow & went sound asleep as I wait, call or look for them. When my husbands dog runs off he is in the vehicle searching or walking to find his dog. Today I am not sure how much longer my kids & I will have a roof over our heads. Not only has my husband reminded me once again that it is his house & property but the bank will not approve him another loan. Months ago he had to have a new mustang at any cost. Writing a bad check to the dealership with my name on it (which I made good to keep my credit from being ruined) to writing out a bad check for the first car payment (the bank covered it & charged a fee to our checking account). He has now got to the point there is no more money to juggle or loans to be had. Of course the car payments are mailed on time & the phone calls to the finance company & sweating starts with him hoping the check is not cashed before his paycheck is deposited that week. The teens have been staying away with friends while he is home on weekends. He spent his weekend sitting in a chair in the yard with his dog & the garden hose while misting himself & his dog. He will not allow a/c at all. It has been 85 to 95 inside the homestead this past week. I was told he would never allow a/c because he did not want me to be cool. Yet the dog has his own pool to keep cool & my fish pond is in need of water. But as he said it is his water. He took the time to jump from his chair to throw a rock at one of the cats for batting its paw at a butterfly. When this did not work he chased the cat into my rock bed while stepping on the flowers & kicking the side of a bush. My prayers for him are dried up & I am to the point I have almost completely lost my faith. I have very little income & health issues that cause me to be unemployed. It is getting harder to get up each day & put on the happy face & start over. I need God to provide a way for my kids & I. The older kids have returned home today since he has went to work. Children should feel welcome in what should be there home. There friends are not welcomed by my husband. He dose not want them inside his house or in his basement for fear they may steal his tools. In the months they have had friends over nothing has been damaged or stolen. I find it strange that my husband wants to have a camp meeting in the field & have port a potties set up. He wants to have a youth minister come in & open the field to youth to camp out the month of August but has no way to pay for it. He believes God will provide the cash for this if it is to be. It should not shock me that he wants to reach the lost of other surrounding communities I guess. They dont really know him. He has no burden for his own children or their friends. There is a mission field in his own home he is not burdened for. My head is spinning with all this & the fact I really do not know who my husband is anymore. He has assured me once I am removed from his life he can be a christian & do the work of the lord. For me I just dont believe this is of God. I am in no way a perfect person but this is so off the wall. For now we are still here & he says he just dose not have the money to divorce me. He saw an ad for cheap divorces. To eliminate this excuse I went & borrowed the amount & told him to go get it & when he provided me with a receipt I would give him the cash. The next excuse was I am not sure it would be legal. He wants me to go to a divorce attorney with him Friday to start the divorce on my birthday. In his opinion what better time to do it.